Lately I’ve been in this weird phase, well at least I hope it’s a phase, where I don’t care about anything or anyone. I’ve become so extremely selfish. It sounds horrible to say, but I don’t care about anybody’s feelings. I don’t care if I hurt people. I don’t care if I make people mad. I just don’t care about much of anything and it’s so sad because it’s exactly the opposite of my true self. Something has just come over me. I’m almost positive it comes from being so good to people. All the time. Everyday. I go out of my way daily to make people happy. I put everybody before myself. I treat people so good and I never ask for anything in return. With that being said, I’m sick of being so genuine and so nice to people and having bad things happen to me. I just don’t get it. How I can be the best I possibly can be, and it’s never good enough? Where is the good karma? Or does karma even exist? I had this boyfriend for 2 years that I would have dropped dead for. I was positive he was “the one.” I did absolutely everything for him and I was happy to do it. I was so deeply in love and in my world everything was perfect. Then out of the blue he breaks up with me. Why? I don’t know. Ever since then, I just don’t care about anyone. I’ve become so cold hearted. I feel like a monster honestly. I think that was finally the last straw for me. I’m done giving people all I have and then end up with the broken heart myself. It’s happened one too many times.